9 posts tagged “baby stuff”

I've almost made it twenty-four hours with out crying. Not that I haven't wanted to, but the feeling has lessened over the past day or so... I still plan on asking my doctor for nursing safe anti-depressants tomorrow. I was on them (actually a nice little cocktail of them) before getting pregnant and I really do think I need something now. No worries though. I did alright last night, a lot better then I expected. I managed to get the girls to bed early (before 11) and I was in bed shortly after. I texted Bobby every time I woke up to nurse to tell him to hang in there. He should have gotten off at six or shortly after, but they got a really weird call around five, and had to write the reports and wait for the detectives and other officers to get to the scene, so he didn't get off until after 8. Figure in the hour and a half drive... poor guy. I came home from Amelia's first appointment around 11 and saw a drink, and I was like what the hell, then I remembered that this is his night time now, and will be for the next month, but wow, it was still a little shocking. I took Katherine downstairs after we got home, and asked my MIL to watch her so that I could get a little nap, it kind of worked... got some cleaning done, ironed B's uniform, uploaded pictures (check them out ) and did a little Christmas shopping. My mother in law even offered to let my use their SUV (I drive a cougar and it sucks with two car seats and a diaper bag, just way too small) when I wanted to. When I came home I got Bobby up and spent some quality time with him. I think maybe it's his shift that bothers me too, It just seems like more bad things happen late at night and in the wee hours of morning, and I don't want him to get hurt.

i have had a rough time with Katherine lately. She doesn't want to listen to anyone and carries on in her little daredevil ways. I am so worried she is going to get hurt, but the only form of discipline that seems to work is spanking, and I hate to spank. I have and appointment with her doctor on Thursday to discuss that and to get her a flu shot. Wow! thinking about it, I am still averaging a shit load of doctor appointments this week. Hopefully, they will be finished soon. I have another doctors appointment for Amelia next week b/c I'm worried about her weight gain. She lost four ounces since birth, her doctor reassured me that it is ok, but I'm still new to this actual nursing thing and I'm not sure how much she is actually eating. I pumped when Katherine was in the NICU to know exactly how much she was consuming and I hope that I don't have to do the same thing with Amelia, but I do get paranoid and don't want to starve her. Wow, I am so rambling on. Anyway, I hope I make it through the night with out crying... that would be at least a day.

So, I'm averaging at least three doctor appointments a week, complete with blood and urine labs (EVERY TIME). TMI, I know, and I'm sorry. Anyway, nothing wrong so far (great news!!). Tomorrow I meet with the maternal fetal doctor who will probably yell at me for not keeping up with my glucose test for the past two, two and half weeks. But! What can I say, "oh sorry, first I had a bout of paranoid pre-eclampsia, then a horrible tooth ache which resulted in an emergency root canal, and then when that was over I ended up getting the flu" I don't think he will believe all of it, but it's the truth. I do get another ultrasound tomorrow, so I get to see how big Amelia is and what she may look like. I love end term ultrasounds. I also get to try out my new Magellen thingy to help me find the office! Yahoo!

I've been really hormonal lately. I really do feel bad for those around me. Like, my bf, she just had a baby last month, a wedding that she is in. Her almost SIL just moved down here, and she is moving in 6 weeks. So, we don't really get to talk much, and I almost get mad about it, like she is avoiding me or something. I know, it's silly and the world doesn't revolve around me, but man, would I love just one rotation. I did really well this week-end with bed rest, and sure enough my swelling went down as did the blood pressure. I was really, really, really bored though. Today, I did do a little shopping. I am almost done. I just need to get gifts for the two most important people in my life now. One of them made me promise not to get them anything, I said the same thing, but I threw a twist on it. I was like don't get me a Christmas gift, you can just wait until I am recovering from bringing your child into the world, after having a huge needle stuck into my back, a horrible tube stuck into my private area, and a huge scalpel cutting into my stomach as a living human being is being taken out (not neccisarly in that order) and get me a wonderful gift then. So either way I win. Nice gift and Bobby wont have to feel bad for being able to enjoy the wonders of child bearing. I'm either hoping for jewelery, or a new power cord for my laptop. Actually, I'm hoping for the power cord more. I still hate sitting at the desk to use the computer.

Anyway, if anything happens before Christmas I doubt there will be much updating. So just in case... Happy Holidays!
Ooh! One more thing. Still having troubles with the middle name. Suggestions are very welcomed. So far we have Amelia Winter Williams. Any thoughts?

On Saturday Bobby had drill. Unfortunatly, I had to go b/c it was family week and Bobby wanted me to volunteer to head the FRG group. The drive sucked. B didn't get home until almost midnight the night before and then we had to get up at 4 to drive down there. We did it though... well... I did it. I drove the whole way. Not a bad drive it's only "2 1/2-3" hours away. I some how made it in just under 2 hours. Anyway, we get there I start to swell AGAIN and my BP starts shooting up. Katherine, meanwhile is going full speed ahead. I woke that child up at 4 to get ready thinking she would sleep until we got there. Imagine my surprise when she not only stayed awake, but stayed awake and sang the whole way to ft. valley and then ran circles around everyone there. So, around 10 she finally passed out, I was holding her in the same area that had the moon jump. There were like 6-8 kids jumping in it when all of a sudden it started collapsing on them. These were older kids, ok, not like 3 or 4, but 6 and older. Anyway, all these grown ups start freaking out and I start laughing. I'm not mean or anything, but it was so something you would see on AFV. I got a couple of dirty looks, but luckily for me another mom was kind of laughing too. Ok, so then we left, not b/c I was laughing, but because of my swelling and BP. We come home, kind of clean and just chill for the rest of the day.

On Sunday, we did some shopping. We bought a dvd for Bobby and then we ended up buying the Wizard of Oz on DVD for K. We also looked in ToysRus for a toy box or two for Katherine. It was HELL, let me tell you. It was so crowed the shelves were so picked over. There was actually a man in an SUV in the parking lot honking in front of the store for his wife. People were driving down the one lane road that leads into TRU the wrong way... It was for real insane. After the horrible shopping experience we went to this awesome little pizza place that we love. All of a sudden I felt REALLY, REALLY sick. My BP was 163/111 and I thought I was going to puke everywhere. Well... first K puked at the table. Luckily she was discreet and gave me a kind of warning. So I was able to catch most of it in a paper towel and then let her finish in the bathroom. When we got back to the table she felt better but I felt worse. This was so putting B in a bad mood, b/c it was one of the last peaceful meals we would be able to have before the baby is born, and b/c I felt horrible and there was nothing he could do. Long story short. He starts pissing me off b/c he is in a bad mood, I'm sick and end up throwing up for ten minutes in the bathroom. We get our stuff to go and leave. I felt bad for our waitress. She had no idea what was going on and probably just thought we were really weird and or rude. Anyway, when we get back home stay on the couch for the rest of the night- my BP falls and I feel better.

Monday- I packed my bag for the hospital, did some laundry and made a list of last minute baby things we still needed. Bobby and I loaded up K and headed out. He dropped us off at Target while he got his hair cut. Katherine and I had a ball. We picked up a few things for Amelia and then Katherine picked out a few things for herself. Dollar books, a little police car to race, some bubble bath, new panties and a dvd. After that Bobby met us and we picked out a NICE BIG 50 gallon tub to use as a toy box. It works awesomely by the way. We went out for lunch after that b/c I was starved and there was nothing to eat in the house. So, we get to the restaurant, and I order wings for K. Bobby is like does she even like wings, and I'm like yeah. She loves them. He didn't believe me until he saw her pick the bones clean. We got tons of pictures. Anyway, so when we get home I'm exhausted and yes, my BP is up again. I try to take a nap which doesn't work, check my BP again and call the on-call nurse. I tell her how high is, how bad my feet are swelling, but I also tell her that I feel fine, and there is minimal swelling on the rest of my body. I also tell her that I really don't want to check into the hospital if I can help it b/c I know they will run the standard panel of tests and then send me home. She tells me to go to the hospital, at this time, Bobby and K are gone- they went to pick up B's parents from the airport. So I ask the nurse if it is ok to wait long enough for my husband to get home. * Not b/c I want him to drive me, why should both of us be stuck at the hospital, but b/c really I wanted to finish cleaning the house, and doing laundry just in case I did end up hospitalized longer than over night. She said it was fine. So, I call B let him know what's going on and start to clean. CLEAN, CLEAN, CLEAN. I moved K's stuff into a new dresser so that the changing table dresser just had Amelia's clothes in it. I moved all of K's toys into the tub, folded at least twelve loads of laundry, put them all away, vacuumed and cleaned out the crib and started putting baby stuff through out the house and nursery. I then informed my husband (who was at home by now) that I did not want him to take me to the hospital b/c it would be a waste of his time. We fought over it for a few minutes and then I was on my way. Blood work, urine test, F*cking catheter urine test, BP monitering, another crash course on 24 hour urine collecting and I was sent back home. Four hours wasted.

Tuesday- Involved peeing in a cup and dumping it into a collection container all day long. I also had to go to the dentist to have my root canaled cap filled. Then I was bad, and went to B&N for some literary therapy. Luckily I had a coupon. Today i had to drive back to the hospital to drop off my collection. The stupid chick at the L&D desk told me that I had to take it to the lab in the main hospital (I know they have people who run errands like that... I shouldn't have done it myself). Anyway, I make it to the main hospital, to lab and then they tell me that they can't take it b/c I don't have the orders. I'm like.- I was never given orders. So, they make me hold on to it while they get a hold of the doctors. The messed up thing is, I am obviously pregnant (19 days to go) my feet are swollen, my face is swollen, I'm getting pissed off b/c no one will take my f*cking pee and not one person offers me there seat. This is a room full of men and not pregnant women, and no one offers there seat to the fat, obviously miserable pregnant woman holding the gas can size container of pee. Anyway, the lab tech finally takes it and says she will call me if there are any problems. Biggest problem so far is that I need the results before my doctors appointment that was 2 hours later. I make it home, iron B's shirt for work and try to take a little nap before my doctors appointment. Doesn't work. Make it to my appointment, lab calls my cell phone, they need my height and weight before they can run the test. I tell them- they must have rushed the test b/c 15 minutes later my results are faxed in. Everything looks fine, I just need to stay off my feet, if my BP keeps rising then I might have Amelia before Christmas. Oh, and for some reason my old doctor never sent over my pre-natal lab work, so more blood is drawn. Thankfully, the day has gotten kind of better, not too much, but I think I'll live. I have nothing planned for tomorrow except for finishing Christmas cards and Christmas shopping, maybe even a little decorating. It's all so hard to do on bed rest though :)

So, I went to my doctors appointment today. I thought it was just to go over my blood work and labs, so I really didn't do anything special for it if you know what I mean... Anyway, I was told to get undressed from the waist down for the group b strep test. I was like what, I don't need that, I'm having a c-section. Oh no, they said, you still have to have it. I was mortified, luckily it has been groomed a little this week, but it's hard to groom what you can't see. So, the midwife (yes, I had to see a midwife b/c the doctor was running 40-45 minutes late. You know though, I honestly like the midwives better and if I didn't have to have a c-section then I wouldn't even bother with the doctors) said that I can go into labor any day! Yippeee! I still have so much work to do though. It kind of scares me to know that in less then four weeks I will be responsible for not one but two children. Yikes! I was scaring Bobby, I told him that the daughters of police officers were almost as bad as ministers daughters. He started freaking out. It was really cute. Speaking of which, Bobby is starting to enjoy his job more. I think he is now focusing on the hero aspects rather than the death risks. Have I mentioned how hot he looks in his uniform. Ohmigod! He looks so freaking hot.
Oh! I totally forgot to mention. The baby is still breech, but get this she isn't even laying vertically. She's laying horizontally and refusing to drop. I'm not sure if this is normal or not, but the midwife said it was weird. Not that it's a big deal with the planned c-section.  I have to go back next week to check everything out again. So, this week I was at the doctors three times and the dentists twice. Next week I have to go to two different doctors appointments and the dentists. Wow! Busy, busy, busy...

So, B and I both agree on Winter. Amelia Winter Williams?
It still doesn't seem right. I really like Winter Juniper or even better Winter Julep, however, Bobby thinks the first one sounds like and air freshener and the second sounds like a drink. Oh well.
I do like Vrai and Verity. Even Roxy. Katherine is still saying Amelia Juniper is her favorite, or Maria Louise. I'm like whatever, we are not naming your little sister maria louise. Not that I have anything against either name, I just don't want to name my kid that. Maybe, we just won't name her yet.

Wow, I haven't been on in awhile. Why? I really hate sitting at a desk with my back to my child typing and playing on the computer. It's been a busy week. Monday involved lunch with a friend. Tuesday involved a friend having a baby (the same friend I had lunch with on Monday), and lunch with my MIL and her sister, and voting. Wednesday I was feeling sick (morning sickness) and then drove to the hospital to see the new baby. He was beautiful. I can't wait for Amelia to be born! I also ordered my Christmas cards on Wednesday... or was it Tuesday? Either way, I ordered them early so they should be here soon, then I can mail them out before Thanksgiving. Ok, so now I'm on Thursday. Thursday, I cleaned the house. My BIL flew in to see my husband graduate. My husband GRADUATED the acadamy. He is now officially a FUCKING HOT COP! Wow. We went to his graduation last night and then out to eat. Eating out sucked. Everything looked good, but I had to stick to the healthy not good looking food. Then, to make matters suck even more, Katherine ate the only good part to my meal. I couldn't get mad at her though, b/c hey, she was eating and it was healthy. The graduation was cool. V.V. long though. Katherine was great, she wasn't loud or anything. She did make me feed two dollars into the soda machine so that she could have bottled water and an orange PowerAide. Gross to the PowerAide. Although, I do love the red and green ones.
Today, I have to fax over my blood glucose results. Then K and I have to go to the bank and deposit money. Wahooooo! i might try to clean a little more, but I have been so tired. I think it's because I'm huge now and the bed seems to be getting smaller and smaller with B,K and me sleeping in it. So, I am the one being pushed over the edge not getting any sleep. I think I might move K's bed back to our room. I feel bad putting her in her room to sleep. I don't want her to wake up scared, but I really need sleep and I hate sleeping until 10 or 11. It just makes me tired all day, and I feel like I don't get anything done. I've also been talking to K about when I go to the hospital, trying to get her ready for it. She isn't having it. She's like, I have a scalpel. I can get Amelia out for you. Then you wont have to go. So, I tell her only a doctor can do it and she's like but Mommy, I am a doctor. It's a work in progress. Anyway, hopefully I will be able to post more this week, but don't  hold your breath.

57 days left. In 57 days Baby A will be here. My doctor said that I should be home by the new year even. This is good! It probably sounds horrible, but I really want to be able to come home that night, I really can't bear the thought of spending the night away from K. I know she will be excited that her new little sister is here, but she has never spent the night away from me ever. I don't know if it's because she was a preemie and spent so much time in the hospital  and we didn't get to bond right away or what. Either way, it's going to be hard for her to not have mommy at home putting her to sleep. It's going to be even harder because we co-sleep and she is a mommy snuggle bug. Poor B, it will be a very rough night for him.
Anyway, we had a wonderful time trick or treating. Everyone in the neighborhood thought K was adorable. We came home around 7:30 and by 8:15 she was out. My child is NEVER out that early. Around 9 I took two Sudafed PM and tried to go to sleep. I tossed in turn all night though. I really hate being sick, and not being able to sleep it off. Needless to say K and I slept in today. Now she is raiding her candy basket. She will open a piece, take a bite and then say... ooh that's yum. I'm going to save it for later. Then she will move on to the next piece.
B only has eight more days left in the police acadamy. Then he graduates! Yay!!! The only sucky thing is when he graduates he will have to start driving to Roswell everyday. Gas, gas, gas. I told him that he and another friend of ours that works on the northside should carpool. It might work if B gets the day shift, but it wont if he gets the mid or night shift.
On to other news, the stroller came today! I put it together and it is beautiful. It's also fucking HUGE. I hope it fits into my trunk. The car seat should be here tomorrow, and then... then all the baby stuff will be purchased. Well, everything except the crib matress. My plan to save has been working. I haven't bought anything since my eye opening experience. The down side is, my laptop power cord has been popping and smoking and has kind of melted. It's a horrible fire hazard and isn't going to last long. So I don't know how much longer it's going to last and wonder whether I hsould buy a new one or not. It really pisses me off though, because I just ordered this new one from Apple in June or July, and it's already screwing up. I wonder if I call them if they'll replace it? Hmmm....
Anyway that's it I guess. I will include what I ate though... last night I did have three pieces of Halloween Candy, celery and reduced fat triscuits. This morning I had two glasses of orange juice and a banana. I really want a french fry.

I forgot to add that the car seat and stroller that I picked out are really not me. It's part of the Graco Classics Cottontail collection. It is very muted, and femine looking. Usually I go for the not baby looking baby things. Like, K's stuff was mostly navy blue and white with out baby product screaming from it. A's stuff is really natural and muted in color and cottontail is screaming baby. I love it though.

Anyway, I made an awsome wrap for lunch today. It had romain lettuce, tomatos, sprouts, horseradish, spicy mustard, mesquite turkey and provalone cheese. Yum.
Last night I ended up eating some raw fruits and veggies for dinner. Double Yum!

A friend of my MIL offered to throw a baby shower for me. At first I thought it was a great idea, but... I already have almost everything I need for the baby except for a few big things that I wouldn't expect any one else to get for me. Anyway, after I agreed to it I ended up telling her no thanks. I'm just not a baby shower type of person. I don't like being the center of attention (unless there are drinks involved :) ) and it's so close to the holidays that I wouldn't want people to spend money on me, but rather their own kids or families... ok, ok the selfish part of me would still love to see lots and lots and lots of presents. Also, since we aren't living in our own place, space is limited and we really don't have the space for anything else. So... long story short, I finally bought the baby's car seat yesterday- it was one of the few things we needed but didn't have. We had an awsome car seat with K, but I loaned it out two or so years ago, and lost touch with the people who I loaned it too, and haven't seen or heard from them since. Oh well, safety standards change every few years anyways, right? Anyway, I love this new car seat. I don't even care if it is a Graco. I use to think Graco was mostly plasticy crap, now I know that even expensive baby stuff doesn't last forever. Prime example, we had a Peg Perego Aria- piece of crap that broke after a few months. I had gotten it off of eBay though, so I figured the previous owners didn't take care of it. Then I bought a Peg Perego Pliko P3. Oh how I loved that stroller. It was beautiful, small, compact and wonderful. But! even though I took great care of it, it broke. First the canopy sucked and wouldn't go down with out falling off, and then, it wouldn't fold up. I have great trunk space, but it's not big enough to accomodate a full size stroller unfolded.
Luckily I managed to get it folded. I ended up leaving it at my moms though, b/c she was watching K for me while I was in school and B was gone, and she has a truck so if it locked up it wouldn't be a problem. Ugh, I digress yet again! Anyway, I went with Graco this time, I'm a little nervous b/c my backseats are very small and buckety and the last Graco base in there really didn't fit well, but... it has a great canopy and any passengers in my car can just get use to having their knees pressed into the dash board.
Ok, so getting back on track, I bought the baby's carseat yesterday, and then today I ordered the matching stroller. I am so fucking bad. I probably didn't need it, but I'm hoping to walk a lot after the baby is born and a stroller will come in handy. I just hope that the baby uses her stroller more than K used hers.